August 22nd, 2007

corset & bougainvillea

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- Spent a couple hours with Dustin this morning driving out to Stinson Beach and watching the waves. The ocean on this side of the country is so different than the one on the other side. I feel less relaxed and more pensive staring at the Pacific.
- I'm trying to decide about what kind of work I want to do, what kind of concessions I'm willing to make.
- I wish that didn't feel like I'm also deciding what kind of person I want to be, but that's how it is.
- I'm excited about someone coming to visit this weekend but not so excited about how much cleaning and laundry I need to do beforehand.
- Sometimes I feel invisible, like I don't exist at all. Not all the time, just in certain situations.
- I'm tired of feeling petty, but I'm also tired of feeling like a kicked dog. The reactions I have that feel petty are normal considering the nature and frequency of the swinging boot. But I still don't like having them.
- Off for pizza and beer with my mom now.
corset & bougainvillea


Last week, according to Rob Brezsny at

If you cooperate with the cosmic rhythms in the coming weeks, they will stimulate some interesting changes in the way your brain works. Here are a few of the developments you can expect: a five-point rise in your IQ; a boost in your ability to solve puzzles; a growing knack for heading off bad moods before they even erupt; a sixth sense for distinguishing between what people say they're doing and what they're actually doing; and a dramatic improvement in your ability to know what you don't want.

And this week:

According to the Haggadah, an ancient Jewish text, the first thing God made, before anything else, was the Torah. This book was "written with black fire on white fire." The 22 letters of the Hebrew alphabet became the raw materials out of which the Divine One forged heaven and earth. Now you, Cancerian, have a chance to get firsthand evidence of the power that language has to shape experience. In the coming days, I suggest that you formulate what you say with great precision. The words you use will have the power of the ancient magical incantation, abracadabra, which is derived from the Aramaic word meaning "I create as I speak."